Getting In Touch (Day 20)

Dear Diary,

We seem to be tracking some of the same experiences here. I'm struggling through food combining (or not combining) just like Becky and, like Maggie, I'm grappling with the issue of not being difficult. Miscombined meals now leave me feeling over-stuffed and sluggish. Sometimes even properly combined meals leave me feeling that way, depending upon what they are. 

I realize that in the last week, I've transitioned without even trying, into juicing until lunch. I had a few false starts with this, but now I only want juice until lunch. This means about twenty ounces of Green Lemonade, followed by the same amount of carrot/citrus/apple/ginger sipped throughout the morning. This give me tons of energy and allows me to stay focused through long hours of class without being weighed down by a 'stick to your ribs' kind of breakfast - you know, the kind I was afraid to give up. Lunch has become a fresh salad with raw vegetables, sometimes with a sprouted wheat wrap, sometimes not, and fruit is my afternoon snack. I always feel good up to this point, but this is where things can get dicey. 

When dinner is simple, like a fresh salad followed by a raw vegetable dish and a piece of fish or a baked sweet potato or squash, I feel great. Not that I can eat the same thing for dinner every night, but this is my 'feel good' dinner. I seem to have trouble going out to any of our favorite restaurants, though. This is kind of a problem, which leads me to that same struggle over 'not being difficult'. 

I really thought I could float along and keep going out to dinner on Friday night without making a fuss, but now I'm not sure how to do that - or if I even want to. Maybe date night wants to take on a new look, like inviting friends over to share a dinner with us instead of going out for food that others prepare.

So, here we are, entering Week 4, and I feel like some really important things are happening, despite the challenges - or maybe because of them. I certainly don't feel like I'm 'there' yet, but I'm reminded that this is a process and I'm going to have plenty of ups and downs and false starts. I'm reminded that this is a process of discovery, of uncovering and of 'getting in touch'. Hearing that I'm not the only one experiencing these things, leads me to wonder if this, too, is all part of the 'process'.

Until Wednesday,
deborah